So My New Neighbor Might Have Seen My Butt: Pivoting to RV Life

Flavor of the Day: Blueberry Squirt

I have always enjoyed having all of my windows open on most decent weathered days. I love the idea of bringing fresh air into my home. I was used to having the privacy to walk around in the nude whenever I wanted when Daughter was gone, even with the windows open. This new place has been an adjustment, to say the least, and part of that, is not being able to walk around in my birthday suit with the windows wide open! I have neighbors on all sides of me, closer than I'd prefer, but I'm also enjoying the little community I live in. My pivot to RV life is not as graceful, as I wished.

One day, I was taking a shower, blasting my music as loud as I dared, trying not to disturb the new neighbors. I needed to get dressed, so I walked, wrapped in a towel, to close one window from one set of neighbors. However, I had forgotten about another window and the cute neighbor who was out working on his place outside until I turned around and rushed back to my room, towel hiding everything but my big booty. As I get into my room, I notice the robe that I should have used to complete this task. I thought, "It's ok, these windows are tinted; maybe he didn't see anything," but the thought stayed in my brain, so a few days later (with said cute neighbor gone), I went to look in my windows from where he was previously standing & realized that he probably saw EVERYTHING! The fact that he was pretty much nonexistent for the next week or so pretty much solidified that I traumatized him instead of him being impressed by my big, beautiful ass. Sorry neighbor!

So yes, moving from a house with all of the privacy to an RV Park with hardly any has been an adjustment for me. I value my privacy & everyone knows that I love not wearing clothes when the opportunity arises. I have now gotten in the habit of closing my windows before my shower or before walking around naked. When I buy or build my own house, I will be able to fully embrace the nudity again.

February was full of "adjustments," and March was full of learning to adjust to those adjustments. I sure hope April & May are filled with finally living life again & manifesting my dreams. That's the thing with life, isn't it? The second you get comfortable is the moment that life will like to throw you a curveball. Unfortunately, I've never been a great catch. I fumble around until I finally can grasp what's been thrown at me, like wearing a mitt that's too big. I sometimes wonder if I am the one making my life as difficult as it is. Although a lot of these curveballs that have been thrown at me have been unanticipated, I still feel like there's something in me that I should have known, but when I look back, it's just how life is, & it's how we react to those curveballs where we either shine or dull.

Yes, we may get tired of things not being easy for once, and we may become exhausted at always being on the defense instead of the offense, but as much as I hate to admit it, sometimes the Universe knows what's best for me better than I do. I am not always in control & it's nice to relinquish that control just knowing that things will work out. They may not work out the way I have envisioned, but they work out & usually, it's for the better.

The push to start the "van life" was a goal, but one that I had wanted to wait on. I wanted to keep staying in the house til after Daughter graduated and moved out, but unfortunately, the landlord had other plans, and her nastiness pushed me to want to be long gone from under "her" roof, even though it was Daughter's & my HOME for over 12 years. Life may know you better than you know yourself. Don't ignore the signs that may appear before the actual event that feels like it shatters everything you know. You can make it out on the other side & sometimes it's just what you needed at the time you needed. Keep your eyes, mind, & heart open to those events & trust that everything will work out, one way or another. Keep pushing to live your dream life & be one of your own favorite people because your strength & perseverance have gotten you this far. Life doesn't throw something at you that you can't catch. You may fumble around trying to find your steps in the new atmosphere that you're in, but through the adjustments and learning process is growth.

Growth is sometimes painful, but once you're at that step that you used to yearn for, it's Beautiful. Don't forget that growth & change aren't bad; sometimes, it's just what you need.

Thank you for reading & supporting me through all of my curveballs that I'm being thrown. I couldn't have done it without you & don't forget about the open windows when you're dancing in your birthday suit.

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